Car and Driver

I still don't have a car.

I have decided relationships with cars are like relationships with people. I was in a perfect relationship with my one and only for many years and it ended abruptly before either of us were ready, but I still trust God's timing was perfect. But, it just makes it ten times harder for me to enter into another relationship.

I often would wonder, "If I could buy any car right now, what would it be?" and ALWAYS my answer was "this EXACT same car." She was just perfect. And yes, I've thought trying to get her back, but I know I would have to sell her again and I couldn't bear the double heartbreak. And yes, I've thought about getting another Miata, but I know I would only compare the new one to my old one and that wouldn't be fair. I also don't want a silver car, because that would only remind me of my lost one. Therefore, I must get something different.

I know many of you may not have the same kind of relationship with your car as I do, but I truly want a car I can LOVE.

I have just closed about 15 windows of used cars in frustration (going on hundreds). So far, my wants, needs, and wallet are still in three very different places.

Wants: FUN car, manual transmission, large sunroof, fast and sporty, heated seats, charcoal grey exterior, not too old, low mileage (ie, Mini Cooper Clubman S)

Needs: running car, decent in snow and ice (ie, Subaru Outback (but want turbo with leather heated seats))

Wallet: cheap (ie, Pontiac Vibe (but want GT))

Hindrances to my search: manual transmissions are rare!!, manual transmissions are a cheaper option and usually do not come on the cars that have sunroofs (an expensive option)

So... I just needed a little venting. My car search has been very vexing and not nearly as fun as all those commercials make it out to be. *sigh*