Crazy Woman

So I'm doing a Beth Moore Bible study. I knew the Lord was telling me I needed to get involved in our local church and I'd been wanting the regular Bible-reading that comes with a Bible study that meets weekly. Well, for those of you who didn't go there, Grace Bible Church in College Station raises you to be a Bible study snob. This has both good points and bad points. The good points are that one is taught to study the BIBLE and what it actually says and glean TRUTH. The bad part is that we condemn studies in which a HUMAN has written the study! *gasp!* "You mean I am to learn God's Word from what a mere human has gleaned!? As if!" Therefore, unfortunately, I was going into this Bible study a little like Jonah after he finally resolved to go to Ninevah, "Okay. Fine. I'll go. But it's not going to do any good." Confessing my pride, I prayed God would help me.


So... the Beth Moore study isn't that bad. Really, it's not. It has a lot of inductive-style qualities. She has us write everything certain verses tell us (good on that) and then conclude answers from our brainstorm without actually telling us "the answer here is Jesus." It's nice. Plus, her videos and writing tone remind me of Tristie Fisher - she's VERY conversational and even though she's speaking to hundreds or thousands of people in her video, she still manages to sound like the two of us are just sitting down to coffee.


So if you're away from College Station, I know it will be hard, but try not to condemn studies before trying them - and don't be proud! It doesn't help anyone.


All that to get to where I was really going when I started this. We're studying the book of Esther. I know! Awesome! Anyway, one of the things Beth has us think about is the phrase, "It's tough being a woman when..." Hmm. Ignoring the fact that many of us (me) really LIKE being a woman (we're way prettier), I guess it is hard sometimes. And this morning, I know my answer. Now, before I say mine, I want you to think a little bit about yours. Okay?


Well, for me, it's hard being a woman when my emotions get the better of me. For example, there's plenty of times I have to explain something to Rob with the clause, "I know it's stupid and completely illogical, but I'm a girl and that's what I think." He's a very gracious and understanding husband. The other times my emotions get the best of me is today. I'm completely flooded. I'm happy and excited to be going to Okinawa - our first choice of assignments. I'm stressed and anxious, worried I'm already behind on preparing to move. I'm determined and focused, trying to gather, sift, understand, and store all the TONS of information on the island of Okinawa, how to do a military move, how to move overseas, how to move to Okinawa, how to move my pet to Japan, where to live, when to sign up to live there, where to travel, when, how, etc., etc, etc. I'm fearful of the unknown. I'm bold in the face of the unknown adventure. I'm anxious. I'm happy. I'm a crazy woman.


Thankfully, this post was written yesterday and between then and now, Rob came home and made me sane again. I love Rob. Now, I'm leisurely looking at potential travel destinations around Japan in my spare time. Nice.